Ah...all these angsty feeling building up in me. Hoping for something that would never come. I wasn't sure for myself when I started to have feelings for you. Day by day, it grew stronger and stronger. At this moment, it is driving me crazy. I'm thinking of you all the time. Is it the same for you?
My "provisional diagnosis" kept changing everyday; "She has feelings for me", " no she doesn't, it is just a case of 'perasan' ". Felt like a lovesick puppy. For her, it doesn't seem to be the case though. I began to feel like I'm the one initiating every move. What happened to the beginning?
When I had my end of rotation, I'd even thought of lunching with you before heading out. Jokingly I said I wanted to ignore you and you've even chided me for saying that. When it was your turn, you left just like that. Silent. How silly of me to keep checking my facebook and my phone....hoping for a response from you. Perhaps I was being too selfish; I told myself that she's got to have her own time and not spending it on me all the time. This feeling of insecurity is driving me nuts.
What will happen in the next few days? Should I remain silent or should I just disturb u again?
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