Friday, June 11, 2010

Keyboard warrior or Outside settle?

Sometimes you'll think that people can be so funny at times. One can declare that he's not an asshole and yet everyone knows he's ACTUALLY one. As for me, I have seen it many times. Every time he complained that people called him kiasu when he's not one and will instead say that there many people out there are even kiasu-er. He did not or failed to realize that he's the most kiasu of all, arguably not in studies but worse still: daily life. This guy wants to win in every argument. He will not hesitate to tell others that THEY'RE PLAIN WRONG and HE'S DAMN RIGHT. When you say something that he does not agree with, then he'll show you a sour face. Sounds pretty SORE don't you think?

Back to the title of this post: Keyboard warrior or outside settle. This is related to the story above...indirectly. I got so irritated at times when I face such people and yet I chose not to scream at them but to do it here instead. So, I'm known as "keyboard warrior" coz I hide behind the computer and say things about people lol XD. People tend to dislike keyboard warriors coz they are seem as coward and dare not come forward.

This guy I'm talking about just now is the "outside settle" type. He is not afraid to confront people and just blast them kao kao...even best friends are not spared. People also hate this type of personality coz they can be so direct, sometimes too direct.

I personally prefer to keep things to myself coz I really loathe open conflicts. I suffer a lot, and my chest feels congested. That is why. All in all, the best is to do in moderation and not being either type. Hwever, when you're facing this guy above, who refuses to admit defeat and like to cari gaduh, the best is to leave them alone. Fight fire with water. Ignore them. You won;t die without them anyway right?

Saturday, June 5, 2010

Tied to the apron string...of a friend

I am just like anyone else. A person who yearns for a sense of belonging. I have this good friend of mine but he is hated by most of the class. And now the worst has come true. People had been alienating him and this sort of spilled over to me...

My dear friend,

I agree that in this group of people, not everyone is worth a friend, but then I just wanna be happy and carefree.

And this applies to an upcoming tour to an island planned by them. I wanna go, but if I'm with you, will I get the chance? Even if I were to go with you, I would end up as a light bulb, and ...your cameraman. Just face it. After all those things that happened no one would be traveling with you. Probably there's another small group, which I think will eventually realize who you are. All the smile that I put on trips with you are all fake. I have been keeping this to myself. You made a trip which is suppose to relief your stress into something stressful. Not once, not twice, but thrice. The way you scream at me, using profanities, reprimanded me like a child, I felt insulted, hurt, betrayed and enraged. And yet, I put on a smile and acted as if nothing had happened.

Being your friend, it seemed that I agree with everything you said. But I am not. Because you would refuse to lose and would argue to the max, so I decided to keep my views to myself. After a recent string of events it has been evident that this friendship is getting strained. I have been hurt lately..by you. I tried my very best to ignore it and I think I sort of succeeded. But then again, because of this, I am seen as your loyal dog, or in a more polite way, your "yes man". I HATE to be labeled this way. After all, I am a person with his own ideas. No one is suppose to dictate the way I live my life.

I have been keeping my distance in order to save this friendship. Because I know you won't back off, so I'll do the dirty job. This upsoming trip will also be my opportunity. I have vowed not to go with you on graduation trip. Because I knew very well that HISTORY WOULD REPEAT ITSELF. IT DEFINITELY WILL. You will never learn, but I will.

Often a slowpoke myself, this is also another example. Where I learned that it is not easy being a person. I should have known this ages ago. But slowpoke is always still slowpoke. Sigh..

"XXX will always be XXX". I guess your friends must have realized it and have given up on you. I believe it's time for me to do the same.