Is it not obvious enough or you're ever clueless?

The higher the expectations the worse the disappointment. Looks like I'll never learn.

Haiz. Who am I to expect so much from you? Who am I to be important enough for you to remember when you're happy with your family? Who am I to expect a gift from you when I remembered to buy you gifts?

I'm just a nobody. Reality dawned upon me like ocean waves crashing onto my face. One moment I was elated, one moment I was full of disappointment and depression.

To be falling for you when it seemed that you're treating me like a friend was really emotionally tough for me. Perhaps I was too emo. By writing this post already shows how emo I am.

I'm just a nobody.

Now should I back off or should I advance, Will I still stick to "better die trying than regretting"?